Another update

Just a little update...Logan had two eye doctor appointments at Casey eye intitute on Tuesday. This is what they said:

Dr. Stout, his vision doctor (a Pediatric Ophthalmologist) said that his vision doesn't seem to have deteriorated since she last checked him (about 1.5 months ago). Unfortunately his left eye is substancially worse than his right and seems to be getting more lazy. So, we now have to patch his right eye for an hour a day. I know that doesn't seem like too long, but he doesn't like it one bit and fights me for the whole time. I happened to coax a smile out of him for a picutre...what a good little boy. I just LOVE him. He usually ends up falling asleep then I have to leave it on longer or put it on again because it doesn't do anything to strengthen his left eye if he is sleeping and not using it. She also said that she wants to check his vision when he is under anesthesia because she can get a more accurate read on the actual vision. She will be out of town for the one on the 27th, but she will be here for the following one. At that time she will find a prescription for glasses...depending on the numbers she gets Logan may or may not be getting glasses within the next few months.

Dr. Edumnds, his glaucoma doctor (a Pediatric Glaucoma Specialist) said that he LOOKS okay (the looks of his eyes has fooled us before though). She doesn't even try to use the tono-pen (the instrument used to "tap" on his eye to test the pressure) anymore because he will have to see her the rest of his life and she doesn't want hime to associate her with pain and struggles. I agree, I hope that he will see her as a friend who will help him, not someone who tortures him. Anyway, she felt his eyes and got a tactile feeling that his left eye still has high pressures. She didn't say much at all about the right eye so lets hope it is still okay.

SO, we take him back in on the 27th for his next EUA (exam under anesthesia) and needling. We are postponing tubes for now and are hoping to avoid it all together. What a sweetie pie he is though...just a little trooper. I sure love him even though he has caused me lots of migranes the last six months.

The girls are doing great. Kaitlynn is at preschool right now and Aubrey is playing with the Little People farm and castle without having to fight for the best toys. It is a win-win...Kaitlynn loves being at school and Aubrey loves Kaitlynn being at school. Of course by the end of the three hours they miss eachother and can't wait to see eachother. It is really fun to have them so close (in age and to eachother). They really are best friends.



Wyatt's birthday is on Sunday and had a GREAT plan for the weekend, but it isn't going to go exactly how I had imagined. I will have to come up with some other brilliant ideas quickly!!

Anyway, that's all for now. Take care!!

SUN!!!

This weekend was beautiful!! The sun was shining, it was warm, my mom was here, everything was GREAT!! I think I really was needing the sun. Don't get me wrong, so far I haven't been minding the rain, but I think maybe somewhere deep down I was needing some sun and some time outside. We had a VERY productive weekend. We decided to make our garden bigger. So Wyatt tore out a few more Rhododendrons and added about 8 feet to the garden area. After pulling out about a couple hundred rocks and countless roots, we dug the furrows, then planted our broccoli, cauliflower, potatoes, peas, carrots, and lettuce. I am really hoping I am not too early on some of them. I will have to watch the weather and make sure I get them covered if it frosts over.


We also got the trampoline up...finally. The girls had a blast and I have never seen so much static in two heads of hair in my life. WOW. It was like afro's of strait hair.


Other than that I got a wall painted and we got the big TV hung, we watched conference, we fed the missionaries, Wyatt got the lawn furniture put together, the girls played in the dirt and climbed trees. WHAT A GREAT WEEKEND. I am feeling much better about life now. I am sure that it is partially because of the sun, partially the productivity, and partially from watching conference.


I love spring. Everything feels new and uplifting. I was really needing that.

Conflictions

I don't know how to say how I am feeling right now. Is it possible to be inspired and depressed at the same time? I want to laugh and cry, sleep and play, smile and scowl all at once. I am conflicted to say the least.I know that my trials are small compared to many, but at times I feel overwhelmed, like at any moment I might crack and lose the ounce of control I am holding on to. I really do want to keep my ounce.

I can pinpoint at least part of the reason I am so emotional. I am feeling sleep deprived from taking care of an 8 month old who has NEVER slept through the night. Not only has he not slept through the night, it is not uncommon for him to be up 3-4 times a night. Probably 13 out of 14 nights he is up at least twice.

Kaitlynn and Aubrey are typical 4 and 2 year olds...fighting, getting hurt, yelling, crying, making messes. At least they do them all together and keep each other entertained. Aubrey is almost 2 and a half and has NO interest in keeping a diaper on, but also NO interest in using the toilet.

What I must say is that I am grateful to be a mom. At times that is the exact thing that is making me crazy, but I wouldn't trade it for anything. I LOVE MY KIDS. It is so great to see them growing and becoming little grown-ups. It is interesting to see them making connections in the world on their own, without having to explaine every little detail. It makes me feel so happy to feel thier love when my girls ask for "one more kiss" before bed or when Logan cries out when I leave a room because he misses me. I just know my life wouldn't be whole without all of them. I am so blessed.

Also, I am SO in love with my husband. I never thought I would be blessed enough to have a loving, devoted husband. I love that he supports us without complaint...not only does he not complain about having to go to work, he takes pride in providing our family with the things we need. He looks forward to coming home to be with us at the end of the day and he loves spending time with us. I love that he loves me...that is something I hope I will never take for granted.

I know that this post is so drastically different from our others. Thanks for being patient with me while I try to work through some of the emotions that are bubbling to the surface. I have decided to try harder to be a great wife, a loving mother, a trustworthy friend, a true disciple of Christ, an organized RS Secretary, a diligent preparedness group coordinator, a friendlier neighbor, a busier person in general. Most of all, the wife, mother and disciple roles are the ones I WILL IMPROVE. The time has come for me to stop being a fence sitter and be more of an active member of my family and our Heavenly Father's family. I love you all.